While nation's battles rise and fall love walks lonely by the Berlin Wall.

So I am sitting here with cold toes, it's pretty late, dark outside dark inside, and I can't find the inspiration to write a thing.

Last night I was able to post on here, and add a new scene to "Yuri Vurichai" which means "Love between women (yuri)" I don't remeber what Vurichai means, but it's only a working titled so don't worry. BUT! Tonight, I am sitting here in the cold dark with a roommate and King of the Hill in the background unable to write a dang thing. I had been staring at the blank pages of "Yuri Vurichai" for about two hours before I decided that I would just blog about writer's block.

And, the Berlin Wall reference comes into the light.

That being I am standing in East Berlin and my muse is dancing the flamenco in a raunchy nightclub that is West Berlin, and no matter how many times I walk face first into the wall I just can't get over there to find inspiration or fruits for my labors.

Lonely walking love, and national battles rising and falling? My girlfriend is very clearly trying to get me to break up with her. She needs to just do it.

Maybe the knowledge of this is what is blocking me.

Maybe I cannot concentrate on anything because my mind is blocked by the impending break up. There is a certain level of maturity lacking in her actions, which given the way she is - it's expected.

Do I still care about her? Immensely. Do I want our relationship to end this way? No, I don't want our relationship to end, but truthfully I can do much better.

With that said the time to edit the relationship status on my profiles will be coming soon.

This is how I feel about that:





















"hollow words that ring and ring."
Maddie

Currently watching: Family Guy

Currently reading "Strange Encounters: Adventures of a Renegade Naturalist" by Daniel B. Botkin

P.S.
"Fat man walkin' with his kids and dog, drove in through the mornin' fog, Hey there Rover, come on over."